Have my previous life choices and experiences foreclosed possibilities in other areas of my life?

Have my previous life choices

And experiences

Foreclosed possibilities in other

Areas of my life?

I’ve found myself writing

Contemplating

Practicing

Praying

The lines have blurred

Between imaginary lives

And my own past

I find myself writing about my life if we hadn’t moved to North Carolina

In a second life, he is still alive

In a third, we don’t get back together

In a fourth, I figure out how to make a life in California

In a fifth, I accept myself from the very beginning

And on and on and on

I will never experience these lives

Or maybe a part of me already has

That’s why i chose this one